Monday, 10 February 2014
Tuesday, 4 February 2014
Hanging*
After
the breaking of dawn
surreptitiously I was clutched
from the quod to my last journey.
In the haste I bid an adieu to Omni mate
to those surly walls I’ve spent a decade with
I recite the holy verse of Quran and Liven up myself.
They bestow me with a pen & paper
on the betimes solicit of mine.
As I want to jot; jot down for my kindred’s
for my amigos and for my land.
A far & wide from me; but as close as breathes are
For awhile I closed my eyes to overcome the calamity
and here I find myself amidst of kinfolks
having the sips of non-chai &
colloquies
wrapping KANGRI [fire-pot] beneath the PHERAN [cashmere cloak]
To keep the winter chill at bay.
In the midst of scene, I went out on the razzle
I roam along the rivulet of my orchard
where birds utter mellifluously, creeks sing seamlessly and flowers fascinate.
In the interim, I harked the chuckles of “ Ghalib ”
I saw him lounging towards his BABA
and “ Tabbasum ” was in ecstasy – she had been depriving of
I reminisced the time of fetes I entertained with comrades
I see long queues of folks outside my home
tarrying for my arrival & my home is festooned in Toto,
I ope my eyes as I felt the jerk of men
& I summed up my entire life in sojourned yore,
They took me to my last journey of yards
The walls of courtyard carry a soggy look
They were groaning, moaning & sobbing
In the loss of their durable companion.
The hands of clock are ticking swift
my hands are tied to my back
An I saw a snare of white rope – dangling ahead of my eyes
Subitary they attired my head with a black grab – I never used to
In the serene atmosphere I heard the ticking of clock
obvio. I was living the last tick-tocks of life
I felt the snare on my neck
my heart starts to throb hastily,
the man pulled the lever
and I am hanged…
Wednesday, 22 January 2014
I Had A Dream ^^
I had a dream that we were together
and we abide in the serene skies.
Beneath the sapphire curtains of heaven
reclining on the crimson beds of flowers,
where we recreate and recast the time for us.
A new dawn in the deficiency of miles
along the floor of stars we make a romance
we make them shine more & others ignite.
I had a dream that in the time of every dusk
thou were my valentine & I sent thou first sigh
amidst of stars & fiddling puffs of air,
we could take a dinner on the verge of dazzling moon
amid of colloquy we repose in the lap of cosmoses
& when I awoke I were there in the cradle
of thine
I had a dream that I could make you mine
all I yearned for the everlasting company of thine
I don’t know if I were worth to thou
still I dreamt a simple dream of being with thou
and the dream I dreamt remained a dream for me.
Monday, 2 December 2013
SOMEWHERE
Somewhere staid and secluded
braving the odds alone.
on the verge of demise
as I've lost the amity of thine
like sand slipped through the fingers
like sunken yore
from the life of mine.
Somewhere in the realm of obscurity.
In a real fix of pang
In the desire of thine
My heart has grown fonder
when I bear the past
when all those converstions resound in the head
And;
when I basked care and attention from thee
when I had been giving the reliable tags
Its been long time ago
now all I have
Is a handful of sorrows and abridged appetites.
Somewhere on the brink of creek
beneath the immortal azure
adorned by the finite twinkling stars
and a rictus moon, secluded in between them
like me in the bloc of folks
lost in the poignant musings
and I saw the stream flowing in opposite trend.
Somewhere obviated in me and has dwelled in thee
somewhere where it has way fared gladly.
Somewhere where it is alone and sad
somewhere where things are going good to bad.
Somewhere it is thinking and asking his conscious
how can someone once used to be so close
and suddenly just wave you off with an adieu.
Somewhere where it's on a continual tarry
somewhere where its world fell apart,
Somewhere I must be amiss, somewhere not
it's when I watch thou walking away
and gave me the pendulous to my talk.
Somewhere I'd have ask thou, how we lost it all?
It's when the tears start to fall.
Still there tarrying and clinging the memories
somewhere where from it's not letting thou go.
My heart is whimpering with the pang you caused
I'd have used my breaths that were paused.
I tried alot, that my lips could move to say
the words, Don't walk away, Don't walk away...
braving the odds alone.
on the verge of demise
as I've lost the amity of thine
like sand slipped through the fingers
like sunken yore
from the life of mine.
Somewhere in the realm of obscurity.
In a real fix of pang
In the desire of thine
My heart has grown fonder
when I bear the past
when all those converstions resound in the head
And;
when I basked care and attention from thee
when I had been giving the reliable tags
Its been long time ago
now all I have
Is a handful of sorrows and abridged appetites.
Somewhere on the brink of creek
beneath the immortal azure
adorned by the finite twinkling stars
and a rictus moon, secluded in between them
like me in the bloc of folks
lost in the poignant musings
and I saw the stream flowing in opposite trend.
Somewhere obviated in me and has dwelled in thee
somewhere where it has way fared gladly.
Somewhere where it is alone and sad
somewhere where things are going good to bad.
Somewhere it is thinking and asking his conscious
how can someone once used to be so close
and suddenly just wave you off with an adieu.
Somewhere where it's on a continual tarry
somewhere where its world fell apart,
Somewhere I must be amiss, somewhere not
it's when I watch thou walking away
and gave me the pendulous to my talk.
Somewhere I'd have ask thou, how we lost it all?
It's when the tears start to fall.
Still there tarrying and clinging the memories
somewhere where from it's not letting thou go.
My heart is whimpering with the pang you caused
I'd have used my breaths that were paused.
I tried alot, that my lips could move to say
the words, Don't walk away, Don't walk away...
Monday, 25 November 2013
SHE WAS THE ONLY LOVE OF HIS LIFE...
He
lately got admission in the public school baramulla in the 7th
standard where he got new pals and rang by rang he forgot with whom he had
spend almost 10 years of his life. UMERR his name; was the average student till
yet his percentage has fluctuated around 70%. But now he is the student of the
institute where his maternal uncle is one among his teachers and because of
this reason he did start toil and with the passage of time he got 2nd
position with 86% in his class. After winter vacation, he is in ecstasy as he
is going to join the new class [ 8th ]. And now he is enumerated in
the bright students in his class. UMERR is shy in real but not an introvert. He
is amiable and familiar and much conscious about his hair style, now he has got
the nestle and attention of the teachers. Besides an intelligent boy, he is the
kind of joy fellow, crazy and idiot typed person and has got the tag of
DISTURBING ELEMENT of the class. Love affair is not his cup of tea but is loyal
and trust worth pal too. UMERR belongs to a middle class family in District
Baramulla and brought up by his Maternal Grandparents. Since his childhood he
used to do all his chores by himself. From the little age he is interested in
PHYSICS and desperately wants to become a good WRITER and usually he used to
narrate his poetry in between his classmates. SAIF is the first and good friend
of Umerr in Public School, they are now good comrades. They mostly spend the
time with each other and used to sit on the same desk [right next to one
another]. SEHAR is the cousin sister of Saif and the intelligent among all girls.
God knows why she used to smile while ogling towards Umerr and as usual Umerr
used to put down his head in shyness. Umerr used to sit in the second row or
boys and Sehar in the first row of girls. And no-one ever saw him talking to or
staring at any girl but now he has started talking with Sehar but in presence
of Saif. Sehar is a tall, whitish girl with round winsome face with a golden
heart.
It was the 3rd day of week, early dawn grandmother of Umerr got seriously ill, his maternal uncle and Aunt took her to hospital, and because of this catastrophe the meals even the breakfast was not prepared in his home and he went to school with empty stomach and finally when the time came the peon rang the bell for luncheon break, everybody picked up their lunchboxes and leaned towards the lane, where students diurnally used to take their meals. Saif was absent because of his home chore and Umerr remained seclude in his class, keeping his head down and is keenly solving the math’s question. Sehar used to take her lunch with other girls right behind Umerr & Saif as she didn’t see Umerr in the lane, she leaned back towards the class with her lunch box in one hand & the water bottle in the other. Sehar dithery asked Umerr; have you had your lunch? It startles him and he replied only no in the answer and narrates the whole incident on her asking. Sehar walked a few steps and sat right next to him, closed his books, handed over the spoon and told him to eat the food first. Umerr sans narrating anything else ate the food and kept half food in the Tiffin for her and asked her to eat and Sehar ate the rest of food and this was the time when Umerr gazed her with interest and intentionally. And they gossiped in the whole lunch break and finally became good pals. After the next few days changes started to appear in Sehar. In a wee-time they became bosom pals now they used to share everything. One thing was there whom Umerr was unknown of, that Sehar has fell head-over-heels in love with him and there was nothing like that from the side of Umerr. But she was sacred while admitting it in front of Umerr . Time goes on and it was the day after a pretty long time for Sehar when she was going to see the face she used to see diurnally. It was the day when both Umerr & Sehar are going to collect their report cards of board exam. [ 8th class ]. Umerr & Sehar had got 89% and 83% respectively. What the bliss it was on the cheeks of sehar and umerr was also feeling debonair; both welcomed each other, start gossiping, exchanging smile and frequent glances. Both decided to take their tuition classes from the same tutor. And the winter came, Sehar was not happy as it’d been long time of 25 days when she'd seen the face, she had fallen for. Sehar wants to speak his heart out; she wanted to tell him how much she is changed due to him. She wanted to depict him her notebook where she had scribbled his name. She wanted to ask him whether he had done the same. She wanted to ask him what his giggles and what his care meant. She wanted to tell him how much she loved him & how much she would be happy with him, she wanted to ask him whether he loved her too. But now after tuition classes they both used to go restaurants and coffee shop 2-3 times a week and used to come back in the same buggy as the village where from Sehar belongs to was at a distance of one kilometer adjacent to the village of Umerr .
One day Sehar saw Umerr talking to a girl studying at the same tutor in a nice and friendly way; the moment shattered her inwardly and for awhile razed her dream to be with Umerr. After ending up the classes, she plunged towards Umerr and asks him to step aside; I need to talk to you in a curious way and now while walking in the main market baramulla. Sehar proposed him in a very modest way while looking down on and intimate him, how much she is madly in love with him & wants to be with him till the end of time, Umerr got shocked awhile as she was unknown of her feelings but when he turn his looks at her the thing that melt his heart and made him fall in love with Sehar was the tears in her eyes and her wistful look. He clenched her hand & rid her tears on her cheek with his handkerchief; with the same footsteps the lunged on & both remained staid. Sehar was waiting for the moment; the moment that is gonna make her life good or worse. But it was really the miracle for her when Umerr nodded YES for her proposal while wayfaring towards their dwells they both were in euphoria. Time moves on Umerr & Sehar were happy in being with each other, there was not a bit bad influence on their studies due to their relation, infact their percentage accretes might be their love has taught them to get rise in love instead of falling in it.
After completing their 11th examination, Sehar seriously fell ill and it was their last board exam. Of 12th class and they both were the science students and they had to toil to grape the good percentage. It was the Tuesday’s morning when she buzzed him and asked him to meet. Umerr took his breakfast and got dressed up and went to meet Sehar. When looking towards her face Umerr got scared and ask her the matter & Sehar with wet eyes told him that she is suffering from the serious kind of heart disease and is running on the last stage. And the Doctors have announced a life of month for her. Moreover she told him that they’ve to break this relation and you [Umerr] have to move on, for your kindred’s and urge him to return that everything that she’d gifted to him as soon as possible, she don’t want him to remain wandering in her memories, in the time that was going to end. Phew! What a love she had for him. After harking her words bolt from the blue or earthquake like words might have acoustic less powerful for Umerr to describe the predicament then. He was shattered and his hope of watching her with him in the rest of his life was perished and what Sehar has narrated to him broke him completely now he wanted to tell her let this month be the last of mine too, let’s live the rest of life in this month, let me be with you,let me be with you only, just with you but his lips were paused after listening to her and he couldn’t utter a word back. After consecutive day he passed all the things she’d gifted him to his friend Saif and told him to handover them to Sehar [as Saif already knows about their relation, infact before Umerr because Sehar told him the matter when first moment she felt something for Umerr, when she was scared to admit in front of him ]. This tragedy brought the drastic changes in his life not even a single word stays in his mind sans Sehar. Sleepless nights and mournful days became his pals now.
Finally the day came, Umer was in sopore with his childhood pal Farhan [his neighbour and classmate too] to bring some medicines for his grandfather, it was near around 10:20am when Saif buzzed Farhan and said in a sobbing voice “SEHAR DIED where you are? I didn’t call Umerr” Farhan replied I am in sopore and Umerr is also with me. Are you coming here to attend her funeral Saif said; this conversation happened when Umerr was inside the medical shop and Farhan was waiting for him outside on the bike. Farhan told him that we’ve to go direct to meet Saif. Frahan Lied and said he is ill when Umerr asked him for the reason. And when they came, Saif’s home was just right next to the Sehar’s one. Saif was waiting for him outside the main gate of his home and when Umer saw the hustle and heard the wail acoustics of womens there he went in the state of chaos and asked Saif, what is this all? Where from this wailing sound is coming and Saif replied “Sehar Is No more”. Tears slowly rolled down on the cheeks of Umerr, whole world seemed depopulated for him as Sehar was his only world & to spend the rest with her was his only dream he dreamt of. Umerr swallowed the stern pang for awhile and leaned to the front lane of her home. Some women were bathing her last, some others were preparing the beautiful tidy white grab for her and Umerr was watching and reminiscing the time, the sunken yore they had spend together. Time came to take her for her last journey. Saif’s and Farhan’s hearts were numb too and they got shocked when they saw Umerr supporting the coffin where inside was the corpse of her beloved, he offered the funeral patiently and lastly he put the handful of soil with his fist on her grave, there was the mixture of memories, moments and love they spend, they had and they’ve for each other in the every bit of soil and is gazing her grave staidly with teary eyes. Everyone came back after buried her, even her kindred’s are now happy in their life they moved on but the boy [Umerr] for him SEHAR was his only love, his only world where he find himself alive and debonair and that world was perished unfortunately...
FICTION
It was the 3rd day of week, early dawn grandmother of Umerr got seriously ill, his maternal uncle and Aunt took her to hospital, and because of this catastrophe the meals even the breakfast was not prepared in his home and he went to school with empty stomach and finally when the time came the peon rang the bell for luncheon break, everybody picked up their lunchboxes and leaned towards the lane, where students diurnally used to take their meals. Saif was absent because of his home chore and Umerr remained seclude in his class, keeping his head down and is keenly solving the math’s question. Sehar used to take her lunch with other girls right behind Umerr & Saif as she didn’t see Umerr in the lane, she leaned back towards the class with her lunch box in one hand & the water bottle in the other. Sehar dithery asked Umerr; have you had your lunch? It startles him and he replied only no in the answer and narrates the whole incident on her asking. Sehar walked a few steps and sat right next to him, closed his books, handed over the spoon and told him to eat the food first. Umerr sans narrating anything else ate the food and kept half food in the Tiffin for her and asked her to eat and Sehar ate the rest of food and this was the time when Umerr gazed her with interest and intentionally. And they gossiped in the whole lunch break and finally became good pals. After the next few days changes started to appear in Sehar. In a wee-time they became bosom pals now they used to share everything. One thing was there whom Umerr was unknown of, that Sehar has fell head-over-heels in love with him and there was nothing like that from the side of Umerr. But she was sacred while admitting it in front of Umerr . Time goes on and it was the day after a pretty long time for Sehar when she was going to see the face she used to see diurnally. It was the day when both Umerr & Sehar are going to collect their report cards of board exam. [ 8th class ]. Umerr & Sehar had got 89% and 83% respectively. What the bliss it was on the cheeks of sehar and umerr was also feeling debonair; both welcomed each other, start gossiping, exchanging smile and frequent glances. Both decided to take their tuition classes from the same tutor. And the winter came, Sehar was not happy as it’d been long time of 25 days when she'd seen the face, she had fallen for. Sehar wants to speak his heart out; she wanted to tell him how much she is changed due to him. She wanted to depict him her notebook where she had scribbled his name. She wanted to ask him whether he had done the same. She wanted to ask him what his giggles and what his care meant. She wanted to tell him how much she loved him & how much she would be happy with him, she wanted to ask him whether he loved her too. But now after tuition classes they both used to go restaurants and coffee shop 2-3 times a week and used to come back in the same buggy as the village where from Sehar belongs to was at a distance of one kilometer adjacent to the village of Umerr .
One day Sehar saw Umerr talking to a girl studying at the same tutor in a nice and friendly way; the moment shattered her inwardly and for awhile razed her dream to be with Umerr. After ending up the classes, she plunged towards Umerr and asks him to step aside; I need to talk to you in a curious way and now while walking in the main market baramulla. Sehar proposed him in a very modest way while looking down on and intimate him, how much she is madly in love with him & wants to be with him till the end of time, Umerr got shocked awhile as she was unknown of her feelings but when he turn his looks at her the thing that melt his heart and made him fall in love with Sehar was the tears in her eyes and her wistful look. He clenched her hand & rid her tears on her cheek with his handkerchief; with the same footsteps the lunged on & both remained staid. Sehar was waiting for the moment; the moment that is gonna make her life good or worse. But it was really the miracle for her when Umerr nodded YES for her proposal while wayfaring towards their dwells they both were in euphoria. Time moves on Umerr & Sehar were happy in being with each other, there was not a bit bad influence on their studies due to their relation, infact their percentage accretes might be their love has taught them to get rise in love instead of falling in it.
After completing their 11th examination, Sehar seriously fell ill and it was their last board exam. Of 12th class and they both were the science students and they had to toil to grape the good percentage. It was the Tuesday’s morning when she buzzed him and asked him to meet. Umerr took his breakfast and got dressed up and went to meet Sehar. When looking towards her face Umerr got scared and ask her the matter & Sehar with wet eyes told him that she is suffering from the serious kind of heart disease and is running on the last stage. And the Doctors have announced a life of month for her. Moreover she told him that they’ve to break this relation and you [Umerr] have to move on, for your kindred’s and urge him to return that everything that she’d gifted to him as soon as possible, she don’t want him to remain wandering in her memories, in the time that was going to end. Phew! What a love she had for him. After harking her words bolt from the blue or earthquake like words might have acoustic less powerful for Umerr to describe the predicament then. He was shattered and his hope of watching her with him in the rest of his life was perished and what Sehar has narrated to him broke him completely now he wanted to tell her let this month be the last of mine too, let’s live the rest of life in this month, let me be with you,let me be with you only, just with you but his lips were paused after listening to her and he couldn’t utter a word back. After consecutive day he passed all the things she’d gifted him to his friend Saif and told him to handover them to Sehar [as Saif already knows about their relation, infact before Umerr because Sehar told him the matter when first moment she felt something for Umerr, when she was scared to admit in front of him ]. This tragedy brought the drastic changes in his life not even a single word stays in his mind sans Sehar. Sleepless nights and mournful days became his pals now.
Finally the day came, Umer was in sopore with his childhood pal Farhan [his neighbour and classmate too] to bring some medicines for his grandfather, it was near around 10:20am when Saif buzzed Farhan and said in a sobbing voice “SEHAR DIED where you are? I didn’t call Umerr” Farhan replied I am in sopore and Umerr is also with me. Are you coming here to attend her funeral Saif said; this conversation happened when Umerr was inside the medical shop and Farhan was waiting for him outside on the bike. Farhan told him that we’ve to go direct to meet Saif. Frahan Lied and said he is ill when Umerr asked him for the reason. And when they came, Saif’s home was just right next to the Sehar’s one. Saif was waiting for him outside the main gate of his home and when Umer saw the hustle and heard the wail acoustics of womens there he went in the state of chaos and asked Saif, what is this all? Where from this wailing sound is coming and Saif replied “Sehar Is No more”. Tears slowly rolled down on the cheeks of Umerr, whole world seemed depopulated for him as Sehar was his only world & to spend the rest with her was his only dream he dreamt of. Umerr swallowed the stern pang for awhile and leaned to the front lane of her home. Some women were bathing her last, some others were preparing the beautiful tidy white grab for her and Umerr was watching and reminiscing the time, the sunken yore they had spend together. Time came to take her for her last journey. Saif’s and Farhan’s hearts were numb too and they got shocked when they saw Umerr supporting the coffin where inside was the corpse of her beloved, he offered the funeral patiently and lastly he put the handful of soil with his fist on her grave, there was the mixture of memories, moments and love they spend, they had and they’ve for each other in the every bit of soil and is gazing her grave staidly with teary eyes. Everyone came back after buried her, even her kindred’s are now happy in their life they moved on but the boy [Umerr] for him SEHAR was his only love, his only world where he find himself alive and debonair and that world was perished unfortunately...
FICTION
Tuesday, 5 November 2013
The Shades Of Autumn...
Finally,
the autumn dapple appears,
On the gloomy leaves
Where the thick green was,
Colossal bloc of dames & damsels
Garnering them for their hearths.
Now, the crackling acoustics of dried leaves
Is wandering throughout the colonies atmosphere.
Daffodiles, Dandelions & the dahlias,
Are nomore there in the sights.
Withal, the bird nests got perished
The trees are no longer verdant,
but modulated in darker ones.
Look at the green fields & Pastures
They are nomore in the delighful shape.
Beside this, the mellifluous of birds,
Is nomore there to hark.
Ants brimmed their burrows with ripe grains,
and bees stored their honey in luscious cells.
The autumns melancholy dwells,
On the every square of earth.
The sunless shadows of plains,
The scary skeltons of trees,
And the drearily looks of the world,
Seems a hazy picture of sinken nostalgia.
The crimson roses & other blooms of my lane,
Are o’ershaded by shades of autumn.
And the aroma I perceive,
Is weird and dismal.
The hue of descented leaves,
Imitating my eardrums,
Some get buried and burned,
While some others are eaten.
The unattired trees,
and bare pastures.
Are mourning as the storm arises,
Feeble sighs of theirs in wail.
All this unpitying & frowning of autumn
Will lasts till the every winter,
Its bleaked breezes ‘ll blows the autumn,
And desolation shuts and cease the scene…
Monday, 21 October 2013
I Wish You Were Here...
Phew!
I’m standing here staid and seclude.
I’m tarrying in the realm of obscurity.
I’m moaning deep down, in the hearts ravine.
I’m looking for the dwell where anybody I know.
I’m imagining Thou, right here with me.
I’m wishing a wish that you were here.
I’m listening but not any acoustics is there,
I’m competing with nobody, but with myself.
I’m wailing in a great loss of Thou.
I’m waiting isn’t anyone trying to find me?
I’m looking for a place, searching in a face of Thou.
I’m calling you for not to leave me here alone.
I thought you’d be here but no,
There is nothing but alone me,
I’m trying to figure out this time,
Won’t you take me by hand?
Won’t you dandle me the way you used to?
Just take me somewhere in the world of you & me.
I’m wishing a wish that you were here.
Oh! The AMY of mine,
You were, You are all is need.
You are and always will be.
That what I live for you & me.
Oh! The AMY of mine,
What I’ve to do, to have you here.
You’d gone away,
What I need, to bring you back.
The hurt is same like an open wound.
I just sit here and weep.
I’ve took my own path,
But still want to be the part of Thou.
I wish you were here
holding me in the lap of Thine.
I wish you were here
to make me feel so debonair.
I wish you were here
To make this obscurity turn into light.
I wish you were here
to be my partner in the competition of you & me versus the world.
I wish for the wish, that I wished since ago,
That I wish you were here…
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